I was meditating on a few things this morning and thinking about the wisdom of GOD. There are countless times when I have made a plan and what I planned just did not work out that way. No disclaimers, my plan simply failed.
This has not always been the case. There are a few instances where I can actually recall my plan working out just as I planned - but this is the exception, not the rule.
Why do our plans fail? How can we have peace when they don't come to pass? Proverbs 16:9 says:
I was still in college, I wasn't married long (less than 2 years), and frankly I just did not want to switch my focus to someone else beside myself. When I got the news from my doctor after going in for a thyroid test because I was sleeping all night and still feeling tired, I dropped the phone. Then I proceeded to cry. Smh.
Now, fast forward to 2009 when my marriage was ended and I was running back to the GOD I had abandoned for the love of the world. I moved back to be closer to my family and my 4 year old son was literally a saving grace. The agony you feel going through a divorce is indescribable.
When GOD says that man and wife become one flesh, He means it. You feel as though part of you has died or is dying when going through a divorce. I do not care how it came to be, you still mourn the loss of your marriage. Had I followed the prompting of the Holy Spirit, or listened to the people GOD had sent into my life to warn me, I may have avoided this pain. God's Word is clear in Proverbs 15:25a
Just getting up and getting dressed is a task that can drain you. It was my son that really kept me accountable to life. It was not my "friends" who cared nothing about what I was going through, or even my "family" who just felt like I should get over him; it was a little 4 year old boy who was "unplanned."
Though it was more than 5 years ago, I can still feel the regret and remorse I felt for crying when the doctor said I was pregnant. I actually got down on my knees and asked God to forgive me of my arrogance to think I had a better plan than Him.
See, it was not the fact that I had a son that made me cry tears of joy during my darkest hours. It was the fact that God had divinely timed his entrance into my life.
He wasn't so young that I became depressed or stressed out by all the things he needed, nor was he old enough to talk back and argue every point with me (like he does now).
When I was crying at the news of my sons coming, God already knew that in just four short years I would be crying tears of joy for God ignoring my selfish behavior and giving me my son anyway.
When I was 18, doctors told me I would not be able to have children because of how my female organs were made. I had no reason to expect a baby, plus I was on birth control (just in case).
I am so glad that my plans failed and God, like a loving parent gave me what I needed and not what I thought I wanted. His wisdom, His love, His timing - learn to trust it no matter how you feel.
When I start to "feel some kind of way," as I call it, I say to myself aloud: feelings are fleeting and feelings are deceitful. I will trust The Lord. Jeremiah 17:9 says:
Feelings were never made to rule over us; we were created to rule over them. I never apologize to GOD for how I feel, instead I try to get to the root of why I feel the way I feel and search His Word for a remedy. Emotions are not our enemy, but they must be put in their proper place or they can cost us more than we're willing to pay.
You plans may not work out, but as long as you trust the Lord, you will prosper -- no matter how you feel at the time. Proverbs 3:5-6 says:
Yours too - be encouraged and keep moving closer to Him. Resist the urge to blame God because He is not the cause of your pain.
This has not always been the case. There are a few instances where I can actually recall my plan working out just as I planned - but this is the exception, not the rule.Why do our plans fail? How can we have peace when they don't come to pass? Proverbs 16:9 says:
A man's heart devises his way: but the LORD directs his steps.My best explanation for plans failing is based on the fact that we as humans do not have enough information to actually make plans. Think about it:
I mean, there are simply too many variables that life throws at us for us to be able to always create plans that will work out. By no means am I advocating living a life devoid of self-discipline. I am simply trying to encourage the countless Christians who are diligent and obeying Matthew 6:33 yet it seems their plans don't work out.
With all due respect, God is not in anyway required to follow your plans. His Word never promises that He will make your plans come to pass EXCEPT after you commit your ways to Him. Psalms 37:5 says:
Commit everything you do to the LORD. Trust him, and he will help you.When I first learned that I was pregnant with my now 10 year old son. I was very upset by the news. I had not planned for him to come into my life so early on - I was 21. The story behind finding out I was pregnant after having several pregnancy tests come back negative is a post all on its own.
I was still in college, I wasn't married long (less than 2 years), and frankly I just did not want to switch my focus to someone else beside myself. When I got the news from my doctor after going in for a thyroid test because I was sleeping all night and still feeling tired, I dropped the phone. Then I proceeded to cry. Smh.
Now, fast forward to 2009 when my marriage was ended and I was running back to the GOD I had abandoned for the love of the world. I moved back to be closer to my family and my 4 year old son was literally a saving grace. The agony you feel going through a divorce is indescribable.
When GOD says that man and wife become one flesh, He means it. You feel as though part of you has died or is dying when going through a divorce. I do not care how it came to be, you still mourn the loss of your marriage. Had I followed the prompting of the Holy Spirit, or listened to the people GOD had sent into my life to warn me, I may have avoided this pain. God's Word is clear in Proverbs 15:25a
The LORD will destroy the house of the proud:
We were quite proud as a couple, which God himself says is an abomination to Him.
Anyways...
Though it was more than 5 years ago, I can still feel the regret and remorse I felt for crying when the doctor said I was pregnant. I actually got down on my knees and asked God to forgive me of my arrogance to think I had a better plan than Him.
See, it was not the fact that I had a son that made me cry tears of joy during my darkest hours. It was the fact that God had divinely timed his entrance into my life.
He wasn't so young that I became depressed or stressed out by all the things he needed, nor was he old enough to talk back and argue every point with me (like he does now).
When I was crying at the news of my sons coming, God already knew that in just four short years I would be crying tears of joy for God ignoring my selfish behavior and giving me my son anyway.
When I was 18, doctors told me I would not be able to have children because of how my female organs were made. I had no reason to expect a baby, plus I was on birth control (just in case).
I am so glad that my plans failed and God, like a loving parent gave me what I needed and not what I thought I wanted. His wisdom, His love, His timing - learn to trust it no matter how you feel.
When I start to "feel some kind of way," as I call it, I say to myself aloud: feelings are fleeting and feelings are deceitful. I will trust The Lord. Jeremiah 17:9 says:
The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?How many times have we allowed our feelings to cause us to make impulsive decisions? How many times have our feelings caused us to say hateful and mean things to people we love, only to leave us with guilt soon after?
Feelings were never made to rule over us; we were created to rule over them. I never apologize to GOD for how I feel, instead I try to get to the root of why I feel the way I feel and search His Word for a remedy. Emotions are not our enemy, but they must be put in their proper place or they can cost us more than we're willing to pay.
You plans may not work out, but as long as you trust the Lord, you will prosper -- no matter how you feel at the time. Proverbs 3:5-6 says:
Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will direct your path.
Romans 8:28:
And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.I do not have any regrets about my path, God knew what I would do before I did and He still worked everything out for my good!
Yours too - be encouraged and keep moving closer to Him. Resist the urge to blame God because He is not the cause of your pain.
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